predominant negative core beliefs:
i should not exist. there is something essentially wrong with me
i am my mind. i think therefore i am
life is threatening to my life. i will survive by deadening myself
i must control my feelings & others with my mind. if i feel, i will disintegrate
my rage will annihilate others & me. the world is a dangerous place
characteristic illusion:
i'll survive if i use my understanding to eliminate needing
primary 'falling' fear: falling apart
primary holding pattern: holding together
primary longing: for acceptance
primary struggle: the right to exist on a material plane
illusion of contraction:
my life is my mind, my thought, & my specialness. i can live through them
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