1. |
doodle
00:09
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may 18th, 2020
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2. |
gentle
02:59
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june 10th, 2020
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3. |
Predominant (two)
01:29
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february 11th, 2020
main psychological defenses:
denial, projection
introjection, splitting
disintegration, withdrawal
fragmentation, compartmentalization
intellectualization
predominant negative core beliefs:
i should not exist. there is something essentially wrong with me
i am my mind. i think therefore i am
life is threatening to my life. i will survive by deadening myself
i must control my feelings & others with my mind. if i feel, i will disintegrate
my rage will annihilate others & me. the world is a dangerous place
characteristic illusion:
i'll survive if i use my understanding to eliminate needing
primary 'falling' fear: falling apart
primary holding pattern: holding together
primary longing: for acceptance
primary struggle: the right to exist on a material plane
illusion of contraction:
my life is my mind, my thought, & my specialness. i can live through them
illusion of release:
i will be annihilated
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4. |
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november 23rd, 2019
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5. |
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march 12th, 2020
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6. |
Ten Layered Recordings
01:05
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november 25th, 2019
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7. |
loop (two)
02:13
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june 8th, 2020
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8. |
Noises
03:44
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may 26th, 2020
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9. |
Piano
01:24
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november 20th, 2019
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10. |
helping
03:28
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may 27th, 2020
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11. |
croak
00:13
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may 12th, 2020
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12. |
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may 3rd, 2020
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13. |
Muziqueue
01:46
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april 10th, 2020
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14. |
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april 23rd, 2020
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15. |
calm (Sympt alt)
07:21
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may 2nd, 2020
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16. |
fghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz
07:19
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october 25th, 2019
f, g. h, i. j, k. lmnop. q, r, s. t, u, v. w, x. y & z.
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17. |
Stereo Recording
04:03
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may 9th, 2020
make me a man! make me a man! make me a man!
make me a man! make me a man! make me a man!
make me a man!
oh, do you just want to stay right here?
oh, do you just want to lay right here with me?
we could have the time of your life
someone always wants some perspective
always comes with some celebration
to get there would take an eternity
oh, she's the ghost in my mind, a ghostly enterprise
most of any time at all
but she knows she's my one & only imaginary ghos-
[...]
-oh do you just want to lay right here with me?
We could have the time of your life, our li-
[...]
-man! make me a man! make me a man! make me a man!
make me a man! make me a man! make me a man!
oh, do you just want to stay right here?
oh, do you just want to lay right here with me?
we could have the time of your life
someone always wants some perspective
always comes with some celebration
to get there would take an eternity
oh, she's the ghost in my mind, a ghostly enterprise
most of any time at all
but she knows she's my one & only imaginary ghost
oh, she don't know, she don't care, won't go
anywhere, she floats above the stairs below
but she knows not to be scared of a ghost who isn't there at all
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18. |
ideal
01:50
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may 7th, 2020
original recording from mid-to-late 2015
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19. |
noises (two)
03:03
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june 2nd, 2020
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20. |
Muziqueue 2
02:00
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april 10th, 2020
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21. |
doodle 2
02:56
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may 18th, 2020
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22. |
"Um."
01:18
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~may 5th, 2020
[from beneath a shifting sea of steel wool & rust shavings]
i have decided, to follow Jesus!
i have decided, to follow Him!
no turning back!
no turning back!
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23. |
Keyboard (two)
01:02
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june 8th, 2020
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24. |
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april 22nd, 2020
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25. |
calm grotto
02:44
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may 27th, 2020
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26. |
Funny Funsong
03:15
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february 1st, 2020
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27. |
echoey jucks (three)
03:11
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may 7th, 2020
empty space, that's where i ... depend
i stun, then i can get ahead
i spill in chalice, stain me out of love
i hear myself, but i ... don't even know ... so
stay
my friend
i know you're sound, you won't change your mind
you
don't pay any precautions
trace, you sold me, & any emotion
no, you're nothing but a ... warm settled relation
they, others spoke, to unspoken
to a sermon, the statement. it blew us all in two
don't stay in denial, first of aid
no obsessions or assumptions with me
i stone. alright. that must be ... a roll
following the burdens of a lowly sperm
oh, let's both wait, wherever you are
& when i'm up & i am gone
when I am covered in sweat, will i be spared
sprayed with
flammable liquids, & the demon things
they all combine to make me ... a machine
that's where i am. follow the path right out of here
i'm sure i'm disgusting, i'm sure that it's somewhere in there
world up in a chatlog
i didn't save into a soul in my machine
follow the net where it goes
follow the net wave
for
a while
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28. |
footsteps
01:05
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november 18th, 2019
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29. |
doodle 3
03:35
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may 18th, 2020
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Valleanenowe
it reads
somewhat
like two words
"volley-ain now"
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