i wish that everyone on the internet was happy, or at least kind


"can entropy ever be reversed?"

at the conclusion of isaac asimov's "the last question",
an incredibly powerful computer, containing the minds
of all of humanity, unified, finds itself at the heat death
of the universe, facing this final question ...

after comparing all possible data to all other possible
data, in all possible permutations, the computer finally
& climactically assumes the mantle of the abrahamic god,
& says: "Let there be light!"



i want to to reject the stupid,
pervasive, abusive narrative
regarding innocence, that it's a
vestigial thing, a footnote, that
all people are born with, until
it's quickly torn to shreds,
never to be restored ...



"Several times it decayed, then burgeoned again, always keeping
the first Clarice as an unparalleled model of every splendor, compared
to which the city’s present state can only cause more sighs at every
fading of the stars." - Italo Calvino



i want innocence to be a way of being,
a muscle that can be trained, something
that can be reclaimed. entropy can be defied!
it's not impossible to decrease local entropy,
just look at me constantly turning proteins
into awareness. so why not in my demeanor?

a muscle that one is conditioned to believe
has been snipped off, like a reverse phantom
limb, would naturally never be exercised ...
so it would atrophy for real

why should possessing basic
knowledge of the way that the
world is deprive me of happiness?
why stand there & take it? why
not violently reject this cycle
of the "non-innocent" depriving
the "innocent" of "innocence"?

the internet connects minds that affect minds that affect minds
that affect minds. personality traits zip around, mutate, die,
compete, at speeds previously unimaginable, making people
helpless prey to the ideologies, personalities, demeanors most
fit to memetically propagate, like apex predators

we can't give cruelty the competitive
edge in a place like this! please?



it'd be wonderful if something could manifest
that would reverse entropy, untangle everything
at once, smooth out their brains, impart them
with inexorable kindness, sincerity, honesty

albeit not really a grand cosmological change.
just the art of kindness, the art of innocence.
the net entropy of the universe rises & rises.
why not focus on reducing it locally? creating
a shelter in the storm

i want to refine my behavior into something that
feels miraculous, i want to stubbornly bring
miraculous things into existence simply
through my uninhibited desire to

or, rather, i want to feel like i'm doing the impossible,
by recognizing an immense subset of things i
unthinkingly believe impossible, which in
actuality are blatantly possible


maybe this album is a tribute to these ideals!
maybe it's a child playing in the sun, & it
doesn't matter that one day it'll expand
& swallow the ground under their feet

or it's a person at a digital audio workstation. it doesn't
matter that one day the sun will swallow her home.
maybe one day she'll sound more professional than
this, more aesthetically cohesive, or maybe
entropy will nab that too hehe

or it's a set of audio files created with
no connecting thread in mind.
well, it's certainly not as grand a
statement as i've gestured here

these are just the "liner notes"
i decided they should have these thoughts in them,
that this is how i want to mark this period of my life here

i hope they don't sound pretentious ...
just because i'm typing words about large concepts
doesn't mean you have to take my typing them
to be as large as those concepts

i'm just a person, & this is just what i want to
type. you can read them & move on. that's all.
i won't try to impart the sounds with undue
meaning. they should only speak for
themselves, whatever they are saying ...